What do you want to be when you grow up?

What do you want to be when you grow up? The first thing that comes to your mind is “what will I work in, in the future”, but have you ever given it another thought? The other day someone asked me “What do you want to be in the future?” I was thinking about it and said “I don’t know”. After that I couldn’t stop thinking about that question, what do I want to be when I grow up? If I don’t know what I want to work in, then who will I be?

The question tortured me and no matter what I couldn’t get it out of my head. Who will I be? What will I be? Those questions kept on spinning around my head. Suddenly I started saying, well what do I like? I started thinking about many things, with that I started thinking about some working options, but none of them seemed to satisfy me. “I give up” I didn’t know, I had no idea of what I wanted to be, was that really the end? I didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up, I had no future.

But was it really true? I started thinking even more about the question and I came out with a particular answer. I smiled to myself and said, I know what I want to be when I grow up, I want to be happy. It doesn’t matter in what I work, or how much money I have, I just want to be happy. And no matter what I’ll achieve my goal. After that I figured out that what should really matter to you is to be happy, always searching for more, but keeping a smile in your face without making it go away.

God

Who are your true friends, or friend? Well you might be thinking the people that are there when you really need them. Well that's true, but is your best friend always going to be there when you need her? The answer is no. They are not always there. When you really need your friend or friends they aren't going to be there for you, or maybe they are but they might be just too busy with their own problems that they don't really mind yours. So are you alone in this world? No. There is one person that will always be there for you even if he is not present as a human. God.

He is the only true friend. A friend that never fails you. When you are crying and you get to a point where you can't even breathe, he will be there, hugging you and trying to comfort you. And all of the sudden you'll stop crying and feel peace in your heart. He listens to you, and tells you without words that everything will be all right.

When you wish something will all your heart, he makes it come true. He shares happiness with you. He smiles when you smile, and when you cry he understands you, because he also felt sadness. When you lose someone you really loved, he stays there with you. When you fall down, he helps you get back up. He gives you the strength that no one else can give you. He looks at you with such a strong love that even other people can feel it.

He will never let you down because he cares way to much, and he hates it when you cry. He is the best friend you could ever have, he will never fail you. If you are cold he will hug you until you are good enough to go on. He will always walk with you and never leave you alone. He forgives you all the time, and he always listens to you. When you are sick he will take care of you, and doesn't leave you until you get better. He is a true friend, a friend for all life, a friend that will never leave you. He is God.

Flowers

You walk around with the guy you like. You are in your own world, only you and him. No one else. No one that can hurt you, no long distances, nothing that can harm you. You are walking around, thinking about absolutely nothing else than him. Suddenly he stops holding your hand and walks away from you, you look at him and start wondering what the hell he is doing. He goes and rips a flower out of the ground, turns around and walks towards you. You stay there looking at him while he gets to where you are. You stay with a smile and the next thing you know he is right there in front of you, giving you the flower he rip out of the ground.

So let's capture that moment, right when he gives you the flower. Yes, flowers are a really nice detail, but is better when the guy you like gives it to you. So there you are, standing right there, in front of the guy you really like, holding a flower that he rip out of the ground, and you have a huge smile, that somehow you just can't get rid of it. So if you imagine it, it's a really nice moment, a really sweet moment. A moment that you usually don't forget that easily, so you just keep the memory in the box of memories. A place where it will never get lost.

So flowers... what's so beautiful about them? Maybe the fact that they are a soft, nice, and a colourful thing. Also as many people know, the fact that when two people really like each other, the guy usually gives the girl a flower to show his love. So flowers are a way to show love. Not only that but also many girls like flowers, so it's nice. So when a guy gives you a flower you stay there with a smile no matter what. Such a simple and natural thing can make your day a bright day, keep your hops up, and make you smile for days and days.

A new love story

So lets make a love story. We will make it in a nice place, where two people really love each other, but there is an obstacle for them to be together, but they still fight to be together... But, why always making like that? Lets switch it all around. This story will be a new type of love story. It won't be all bright because it never is, and it won't be a lot of love, but it will still be a love story.

Here are the two main characters, Lucy a girl that just moved from her town to another one, and Bryan a guy from the town where Lucy moved to. At first Lucy didn't know anyone, and she didn't really like it there. She had lived all her life in Australia, and now moving to England was really shocking. She missed all her friends, and really wanted to go back. What she did like about England was her house. She lived in the beach, the prettiest one there is.

One day she went to take a walk through the beach. There she met this really cute guy, Bryan. What she didn't know was that Bryan was a bully, and that he didn't care about anyone else. When they met, Bryan started to be really sweet to her. The days passed and the same thing happened, until she fell in love with him. Bryan knew that she liked him, and that was exactly what he wanted to happen.

One day he went to look for her, and told her "I don't love you, I never did, and I never will". Lucy felt really bad, destroyed and wanted to run away, to hide, to disappear... You might be thinking, well this isn't a real love story, but it is. Not all the love stories will be great, wonderful, colourful, and bright. Anyway, I'll go on. The days passed and Bryan didn't fell the same. He felt different, somehow he couldn't get Lucy out of his mind.

Bryan had never felt that, so he didn't know what was happening to him. Love, that's what happened to him. He felt in love with Lucy. In that moment he wanted to go back and fix everything he did. He hated his self for hurting Lucy... So then the love story begins. He fought for her, until they got to be together.

I know it's weird to write a story, but there is a reason of why I did it. It's to show that not everything is pink. Life is pretty hard, and that's what's beautiful about it. If you fall down you get to choose if you stand up again, or you stay in the floor. As life goes on you learn new things, and not only about love, many other things too. You will have many ups and downs, but you have to learn how to get over them. Fight for your dreams, and remember that after all For every bad thing, a good thing comes.

Reality is just as good as friction

You wake up with a smile on your face, feeling like it's the best day ever, and thinking that nothing could ever go wrong. The whole day you are thinking that your life is the best, that you could never wish for anything else. The whole day you are singing happy songs, and jumping around. Everyone sees you and they think that you are the happiest person in the world. You have the biggest smile that someone could have ever seen. You know that you are the only one that can make your own destiny, that your life it's your own story and that you are the author.

You are you. You live in a world full of dreams. Your own world where there are only good things, and it's a place full of dreams. No fears can reach you there, and nothing can terrify you, because you know it's only you, and no one else. It is you and the people you love, it's you and the people that love you, it's you and the people that would never hurt you. You know that nothing could possibly go wrong, because you live in your own perfect world.

Your dreams are the life you always wanted to have, and when you wake up you live the life you lived in your dreams. Reality is just as good as fiction. There is no need to imagine something better than what you have, because you have it all. You have everything that any person could ever wish for. You have a great family that loves you, you have friends that you know that will always be there for you, you know that Jesus would always help you no matter what, and you have yourself.

So what else could you wish for? Nothing. You're life is just as perfect as anyone could ever imagine. Your dreams and your most wished wishes are your own life. You have the prettiest smile ever. You know that everyone would give everything in the world just to see you smile. You know that you are you, and that no one would ever change it. You know that you're life is the best thing ever, and nothing can break it.

A world in your eyes

Have you ever thought that you can see what people really feel through their eyes? Well it is true, eyes are like a windows to your soul, they show how you really feel. It's kind of difficult to believe in it, but it's true. Eyes show what you really feel, and even if you tried to deny it, you can't. Eyes are the most important thing, they show who you really are, and how you really feel. Eyes are such a simple thing, so beautiful, so small, but with such a great meaning.

When you are about to cry but you just smile, your eyes show a cloudy day with no hopes and dreams broken. Even though you might seem really happy and full of joy from the outside, the only thing that doesn't show it are your eyes. Your eyes show how you really feel from the inside, they show all the sadness you are feeling in that moment, and you can't do anything to try to deny it.

In another hand when you are happy, your eyes show a sunny day, full of hopes, joy, and happiness. They get so bright because you feel so happy. When you are happy, you might notice that your eyes get brighter, that they have a brighter colour than they usually do. Eyes show light, most of all. Light wish means happiness.

So eyes show how you really feel, who you really are. Eyes are beautiful and have a great meaning. Eyes are everything.

You

So you asked me why I was happy and I told you because I met you. You didn't believe me, but I will show you a thousand of reasons so you can believe me, so you can know that because I met you I can smile and really feel it. So first of all let me tell you that you are a really important person to me, since the day I met you, you were always there for me, listening to my stupid problems, helping me, distracting me from class haha, and just being such a great friend, just being you. Maybe you didn't know, but you showed me that I can trust someone again, that I can build my own world full of hopes and happiness again. You showed me that love wasn't over.

You might be wondering how you did that, well let me tell you this. Before I met you I felt like my world was over, that wishes were useless because they wouldn't come true no matter how hard you wished for them. After that I met you, and you showed me a completely different view from the world. You showed me that wishes can come true if they are the right ones. You made me believe in wishes again, made me pray to the starts for some thing I really wanted, made me be the one I was before.

You, such a simple person, such a kind person, you changed my life completely. Just when I thought that life was the worst thing ever, you came and showed me that it's the best thing in the world. You made me believe in myself again, made me smile and really mean it. You just made me a the person I was before. Before when I smiled and felt it, when I believed in all those stupid things like wishes, and starts that make your wishes come true. You made me believe again.

Not only that, you also showed me that love wasn't over. That what I went through was just something that will teach me. You made me feel loved again. You showed me the real meaning of caring and loving someone. The real meaning of love. You told me that you would protect me from anything, now I feel save because I know that if I fall down I will have someone that will be there to help me get up again.

So just to finish this you showed me the bright side of life, you showed me that life can still go on and that if you fall down you can get up as many times as you want. Thank you a lot for everything you have done for me, for making me be the girl I was before, for always being there for me, and the most important thing, for showing me that I can believe in someone again. Thank you for showing me real love, I love you.

You make me smile

I was looking at google, kind of sad, I won't lie, but then I saw a picture that sad "You make me smile". In that moment I remembered when you once told me "Some times, when I talk to you, I smile and don't even notice". Well guess what? It always happens to me. I some times find my self smiling while I'm talking to you, and that's why I just Love the way you steal a smile from my face. I know that it might sound weird, but it is true.

For some reason we aren't talking right now. Maybe it's you, maybe it's me, but right now I don't care about it, right now I only know that I would love to talk to you, to get back the smile that I once got because of you. To get back the smile that you drew on my face, with the same pencil that we used to write our story.

The funny thing is that there is a small possibility that you will read this, but who knows, maybe you won't even know it's for you. I still write, just because I'm trying to find something nice. Something that will actually say exactly the way I feel with out telling you too much. Any ways, even though right now we aren't talking, I love you.

Smile(:

So why not trying to find some thing nice about life? Well there are many things. How to start this? I don't know. Is it good? I don't think so. Am I having fun while I'm writing this? I guess so. Am I happy right now? We could say so. Are you happy with your life right now? Not really. So if there are many sad answers, how will I find a good thing about life? Well here is the answer, which is actually longer than the other ones because it's happy.

So a good thing about life, I have friends. They might be crazy but I have fun with them, they make me smile when I'm about to cry, and I laugh with them. They are always there for me, and no matter what they will still a smile from me. So friends are really important in life, they support you and never leave you behind, they will smile with you, and cry with you, they will stick up for you and won't ever let you do stupid things... well at least alone.

After that there is always family. They will always know what to tell you, and will always be the right thing. They will always, always be there, they will never fail you. Also they love you like no one else loves you, they are the only people who really know you the way you really are, and still accepts you. They are the people who watched you grow, make a mistake and help you fix it, they are the people who never abandoned you.

So there you go, reasons of why smiling even though you feel like shit. Even when you think that your world is getting destroyed by an unknown reason, remember there are always things of why smiling. So don't ever forget it, smile even if the world is breaking into small little pieces.

July 23

Knowing that you were once there for me is good, but thinking that you aren't any more hurts. It was once a you & me, but not any more, why? Maybe because I got scared, and I was hopping to get a little protection or security, but I didn't. I only wanted to know that you cared about me the same way I did, but I didn't even get that. You were really nice, always so sweet, but the wind takes the words, but if they were true, they should have stayed, not go.

After what happened a while ago changed me, and you knew it. You knew that it was the worst thing that I ever felt, and you didn't care. The thing that happened scared me, and I didn't ever want to fall in love ever again. And if before I liked some one, it was just like a game, and you knew it. You knew that I hated the feeling of being alone, that I was scared that what happened once will happen again.

You told me you did care, and that it wasn't ever going to be like that again. But guess what? You were wrong, because after all at the end you just left me there. So tell me now, how am I suppose to trust any once again? If the person who I started trusting again just left me there like nothing. Let me tell you some thing, I'm tired of being used as a toy, I thought you were different, I thought you did care... But I was wrong, you never did, and you'll never do.

For you.

I'll tell you the truth, I don't know how to start this, I just know I have to and I want to. Maybe if you read it you will never know it's for you but I hope you do. I once promised you I was going to write about you so now I'm doing it, it's just that I'm not sure if it's good or not. I try to write with out showing what I really feel, but if there is something that I should tell you is that I don't know what I would do with out you, and that you are a really important person for me. It's interesting how you made me love you so much in such a small time, but I won't lie, I like it.

Thank you for always being there for me, you are a very special person. I love it when you still a smile from my face, and when you make me laugh, with you dumb thoughts. Maybe it's true that I don't really want to accept the truth, that I do really love you. It's just really amazing how fast all of this happened. Now I know that if I lose you I would go crazy, I guess I got used to your love and that I don't want to lose it.

I shall say that I love the way you say my name or you call me, and even if you annoy me, I like it. In case you don't know, you are pretty much always in my mind, I can't get you out of my head. I love it when you call, or when you send a message, and I hate when you don't. I wish that I could be with you, spend a little bit more time together, but it's not possible, and I know that things happen for a reason. You are so far away from me but at the same time so close, you can't even imagine how much I love it. To finish this, I love you more than you can imagine, and believe me when I say I love you because it's true.

Today.

I cough myself smiling, and I was wondering why. After that I realised it was because I was thinking of you. I wonder why you are always on my mind. It's like you are stuck in my head and the only thing I can do is think of you. It's amazing how the only thing I think about it's you and me being together again.

I was pretty bored today, I didn't really do anything. Actually I didn't do anything at all. I stayed home since I had to do some homework. I still haven't finished them, and I can't understand why. I have all the information I need, but for some reason I just can't do the work. The only thing I do is listen over and over again the same song that reminds me of you, and wait for you to call me or text me. Am I just going mad? I really don't want to fall in love. I have bad experience with it. Last time I really liked someone I turned up getting really hurt, and to be honest, I don't really want that again.

So if I know I don't want to love you, why can't I just stop thinking of you? It's just amazing how I can't do anything than think of you. It gets really frustrating. I wanted to go out, think about other things, just try to forget about you for some time, but for some reason my parents didn't let me. I always say well everything happens for something, but I would really love to know why this.

All I've done this hole day was think of you then, think of you, after that, think of you. Let's make it shorter all I ever did was think of you. When you text me I always smile and answer, but this time I was actually really happy because you did it. It's getting on my nerves, I really want to do something about it but I can't. For some reason I can't do anything at all.

I guess I'll go and watch some T.V. think about everything, and maybe if you do really care, you'll text, or even call. Just so you know I don't want to love you because I'm afraid that something bad will happen. I mean, in other words, I'm afraid I will get hurt, even though when I'm with you, I feel really happy and I feel like nothing bad can happen, there is always a side that tells you no. But remember after all I love you. You are the reason I wake up and smile. (:

Today we are going to fly

Take my hand, hold it tight 'cause baby today we are going to fly. We will fly to a place where there will be no one stopping us, to a place where there are no people that don't want us together, to our own world. To our own perfect world where no one can touch us, where no one can tell us not to be, where no one can tear us apart. To place where there would be me and you and it will never end.

I'm tired of always there being someone that doesn't want us together, tired of people trying to tear us apart. Life is not always the way you want it to be, but at least we can make an effort to make it similar. I'm tired of it, there is always something that stops us from being happy.

I remember the day you told me "There are people who want to kill us" then hugged me and said "but I'm with you". I loved that moment and I wish we could back in time, where she wasn't between us, where we were happy together. It made me remember Romeo & Juliet, where they fought for their love, and even if people tried to tear them apart they fought for them.

So baby what do you say? Just hold me tight, never let go, and we will scape. Maybe for sometime in our dreams but it will be us without problems. We will fly to a place where nothing will stop us, to a place that we've always dreamed of. So just do it, nothing can go wrong if there is only you and me. Like I said, we will fly to a place where it will be me & you forever, and nothing will stop us.

For all bad things, something good comes :)

I wonder how it would be if you knew that every smile from you, makes my day better. If you knew that the first time you told me I love you I couldn't sleep thinking that you said that. I'm starting to think that maybe you are a really important thing in my life. I know find my self happy again, laughing, and smiling, something I stopped doing a long time ago, for something really stupid.

A girl called Malu just asked me how I got all my inspiration, I laughed and just said music, and continue writing this. While I was writing I started thinking, is it really music? I think its you, since after all I've written till know it's really for you. So Malu if you read this now you got the real answer, its from the guy I Like.

I guess I have to say thank you to life, because after all after all bad things, something good comes. Life gave me fabulous friends, family, and gave me many opportunities that are just great. Even if some times I've crying till I have nothing left, there were always people that were there for me, looking after me, telling me that everything will be ok.

Now I moved from school, and I got to meet knew people. They are amazing. The girl that has treated me better is Lucero she is a great person. But this year I didn't only meet people from my school, I also got to meet people from other schools, like Malu who is a really nice girl. Like the guy I like, that just makes my days better, and many more people.

So I started talking about the guy I like and then went on with friends. Well I'll go once more to the guy I like. Like I said in the other post, thank you for every moment I had with you, you brighten my days, you are a really nice person, and talking to you is great, makes me smile and laugh, and be happy. Thank you I love you baby.

So I'll finish this post with the 8 most important people in my life.

1. My mom, 'cause she's always been there, she understood everything that I felt, and always knows what to say.

2. Fiorella Shiguekawa, you are a really great person thank you for always being there, and even if we had our ups and downs you were always, always there.

3. Renatto Lisman, without you I don't know what I would be doing right now. You were there with me in a time when I was really sad and felt alone. You never left me and always thought of me I love you, always remember that :)

4. Carlos Torres, woow I have no words to say how much I love you. You are a really nice person and have always been there for me. Even if you are kind of emo sometimes, and SOMETIMES forget about me, you always made me smile. I love you ugly :D

5. Fernanda Castro, you are the BEST person I've ever meet in my hole life. We never had fights and always with a smile you just made my day better. You are a wonderful person always remember that, and NO ONE can make you feel sad, just know that I'll always be there for you.

6. Bruno Rossi, you are the best oompa in the world, thank's for always been there for me, for helping me when I needed more than never a friend. Thank you for helping me in stead of your friend, I never thought you would do that I love you love :)

7. Sebastian Paul, even if you are a really annoying person, you've always been there, and you were the first person to be nice to me in school, thanks.

8. Ricardo Edson Palacios Guillen, you've always helped me out, I remember that the first time we talked to each other you were really shy and after we talked more and more and you kept hitting me, and laughing with me and about me. After all I really thank you because you were always there for me.

The same story one more time.

So once again I was wrong. You weren't the person I though you were. You didn't love me as much as I did, now I just stay alone with nothing left. I gave up everything for you, and you for me nothing... I can't understand why this always happens to me. "Star forgetting him" a friend told me, but if it was that easy I really would. Why do I keep on thinking about you? It hurts to know that you wouldn't even pick up the phone, or answer any message.

My friends tell me I shouldn't be sad or anything since there are many guys that actually would give a world for me, but I don't know why I'm stuck with someone that doesn't care about me. The only thing I can do is think about you, look at my phone and see if for any chance it will ring. I really hope it will, but I know deep inside it really won't.

I guess everything I though where just dreams, but like people say, dreams don't always come true. I wish I could go back in time, when we were back in the beach and we were happy together. But things happen and as the time passes by, people forget about it. I wonder were all the love when to. I really get frustrated to know hoy much I can love you, how happy I can get by just seeing you sing in, or send a message, and knowing you don't feel the same way.

It hurts to know all this happens. I wonder if I ever did something for all of this to happen to me. Today was a very sad day, I hated it. The guy I like didn't even talk to me, I realised that my best friend and I weren't so close any more. I felt like If I had lost everything I once loved. I wanted to run away, scape from this world, go to my world where everything was ok, where there was still a you & I.

I can't understand how everything got lost, one day we were all happy together, the next day, we barley talked. I wonder if it was something I did, something I said, or something I didn't say. I wish you were here right now, I really need you. I wish you were here right now. But I don't even know where you are, what you are doing. I'm dyeing to know something about you, but I know I should't send any message or call. I wanted you to do that, but I knew you weren't, and it killed me.

I guess I was wrong one more time, and one more time I will cry and be sad. One more time the story will happen. I look at the picture of us, and just cry. I cry because I don't know about you, because I don't know where all the love went. Because I know that you don't feel the same way.

Life your love life without regrets

So does love really exist or is it just a simple illusion? What ever it is, when you feel it, it feels nice, and even more if the person you like, likes you to. So tell me something, if love is a beautiful thing, why does it hurt you? It is weird since the person you think that loves you will never hurt you right? So then why do you end up hurt? Why do people say "love hurts"? Is it really that it's just made for people to suffer? Well here is what I think.

We are in a young age, and I don't think real love exist at these age. You think that your boyfriend is the love of your life, but believe me, the love of your life would never want to see you sad, and will NEVER hurt you. So why do people say to each other I love you when they are going out? Well maybe it's just to make it sweet, and it is true, but sometimes they don't even feel it. So why saying I love you, when you don't feel it? I guess just to sound sweet. I won't lie, I do like it when some tells me I love you. It makes it sound sweet, and it makes you feel loved.

You might wonder, but what if a friend tells you I LOVE YOU? Well, I have a friend I call him "Tonto" and he ALWAYS tells me I love you. He is a very important person to me. Love at this age does exist, but if its between friends. Friends are people that will ALWAYS be there for you no matter what, friends like him are one in a million. I can say I love him, because he's always been there for me, because when I'm crying he is the only one that can make me laugh or smile, because when I feel alone he is the one that is always there telling me that he will always be there for me. That's a love, I really LOVE. A friend love.

You might also think, well some people got married with their first boyfriend. It is true, some people do find true love with the first person. But those people are just one in a million. It's very sweet to get married with your first boyfriend, since you already know everything about him, and he knows everything about you. It's your first love a love you will never forget.

I won't lie, I've also said I LOVE YOU to my boyfriend, and yeah, sometimes I also didn't mean it, because like I said at the beginning I don't believe at love at this age, but I still love to say I love you, and that people tell me I love you. Maybe it's all something your heart wants you to hear, say, feel.

"Love" at this age is a very nice thing, since you like someone, you think they are the right one, and you feel like you are in a world with him, and then you experience what it is like to be left alone. You get new experiences, and you get to learn about life. It hurts when someone breaks up with you, but just remember everything happens for a reason, maybe it wasn't the right one, maybe you needed a break, but remember LIVE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT REGRETS, because you only live once. :)

A day with out you

I know some times you think I don't care about you, or I've left you aside. Even though you don't notice I'm always thinking of you. Wondering how you are, and where you are. I know we've gotten apart, but I want you to know that I will always be there, NO matter where you are, or what you are doing, just know that I would always be there.

I know I'm not the one that starts talking, but maybe it's because, you've never done it before. I would be honest with you, I know that in a few days you will be sad, but I want you to know that even if we are not that close to each other any more I'll be there, and even if I got hurt because we weren't so close just because of you know who, I'll be there, and if it's possible I will even cry with you, like we use to.

I MISS you and I want you to know that NO ONE and NOTHING will stop me from being your friend.

If you are reading this, I want you to know that I LOVED you, LOVE you, and WILL LOVE you.