You make me smile

I was looking at google, kind of sad, I won't lie, but then I saw a picture that sad "You make me smile". In that moment I remembered when you once told me "Some times, when I talk to you, I smile and don't even notice". Well guess what? It always happens to me. I some times find my self smiling while I'm talking to you, and that's why I just Love the way you steal a smile from my face. I know that it might sound weird, but it is true.

For some reason we aren't talking right now. Maybe it's you, maybe it's me, but right now I don't care about it, right now I only know that I would love to talk to you, to get back the smile that I once got because of you. To get back the smile that you drew on my face, with the same pencil that we used to write our story.

The funny thing is that there is a small possibility that you will read this, but who knows, maybe you won't even know it's for you. I still write, just because I'm trying to find something nice. Something that will actually say exactly the way I feel with out telling you too much. Any ways, even though right now we aren't talking, I love you.

Smile(:

So why not trying to find some thing nice about life? Well there are many things. How to start this? I don't know. Is it good? I don't think so. Am I having fun while I'm writing this? I guess so. Am I happy right now? We could say so. Are you happy with your life right now? Not really. So if there are many sad answers, how will I find a good thing about life? Well here is the answer, which is actually longer than the other ones because it's happy.

So a good thing about life, I have friends. They might be crazy but I have fun with them, they make me smile when I'm about to cry, and I laugh with them. They are always there for me, and no matter what they will still a smile from me. So friends are really important in life, they support you and never leave you behind, they will smile with you, and cry with you, they will stick up for you and won't ever let you do stupid things... well at least alone.

After that there is always family. They will always know what to tell you, and will always be the right thing. They will always, always be there, they will never fail you. Also they love you like no one else loves you, they are the only people who really know you the way you really are, and still accepts you. They are the people who watched you grow, make a mistake and help you fix it, they are the people who never abandoned you.

So there you go, reasons of why smiling even though you feel like shit. Even when you think that your world is getting destroyed by an unknown reason, remember there are always things of why smiling. So don't ever forget it, smile even if the world is breaking into small little pieces.

July 23

Knowing that you were once there for me is good, but thinking that you aren't any more hurts. It was once a you & me, but not any more, why? Maybe because I got scared, and I was hopping to get a little protection or security, but I didn't. I only wanted to know that you cared about me the same way I did, but I didn't even get that. You were really nice, always so sweet, but the wind takes the words, but if they were true, they should have stayed, not go.

After what happened a while ago changed me, and you knew it. You knew that it was the worst thing that I ever felt, and you didn't care. The thing that happened scared me, and I didn't ever want to fall in love ever again. And if before I liked some one, it was just like a game, and you knew it. You knew that I hated the feeling of being alone, that I was scared that what happened once will happen again.

You told me you did care, and that it wasn't ever going to be like that again. But guess what? You were wrong, because after all at the end you just left me there. So tell me now, how am I suppose to trust any once again? If the person who I started trusting again just left me there like nothing. Let me tell you some thing, I'm tired of being used as a toy, I thought you were different, I thought you did care... But I was wrong, you never did, and you'll never do.