For you.

I'll tell you the truth, I don't know how to start this, I just know I have to and I want to. Maybe if you read it you will never know it's for you but I hope you do. I once promised you I was going to write about you so now I'm doing it, it's just that I'm not sure if it's good or not. I try to write with out showing what I really feel, but if there is something that I should tell you is that I don't know what I would do with out you, and that you are a really important person for me. It's interesting how you made me love you so much in such a small time, but I won't lie, I like it.

Thank you for always being there for me, you are a very special person. I love it when you still a smile from my face, and when you make me laugh, with you dumb thoughts. Maybe it's true that I don't really want to accept the truth, that I do really love you. It's just really amazing how fast all of this happened. Now I know that if I lose you I would go crazy, I guess I got used to your love and that I don't want to lose it.

I shall say that I love the way you say my name or you call me, and even if you annoy me, I like it. In case you don't know, you are pretty much always in my mind, I can't get you out of my head. I love it when you call, or when you send a message, and I hate when you don't. I wish that I could be with you, spend a little bit more time together, but it's not possible, and I know that things happen for a reason. You are so far away from me but at the same time so close, you can't even imagine how much I love it. To finish this, I love you more than you can imagine, and believe me when I say I love you because it's true.

Today.

I cough myself smiling, and I was wondering why. After that I realised it was because I was thinking of you. I wonder why you are always on my mind. It's like you are stuck in my head and the only thing I can do is think of you. It's amazing how the only thing I think about it's you and me being together again.

I was pretty bored today, I didn't really do anything. Actually I didn't do anything at all. I stayed home since I had to do some homework. I still haven't finished them, and I can't understand why. I have all the information I need, but for some reason I just can't do the work. The only thing I do is listen over and over again the same song that reminds me of you, and wait for you to call me or text me. Am I just going mad? I really don't want to fall in love. I have bad experience with it. Last time I really liked someone I turned up getting really hurt, and to be honest, I don't really want that again.

So if I know I don't want to love you, why can't I just stop thinking of you? It's just amazing how I can't do anything than think of you. It gets really frustrating. I wanted to go out, think about other things, just try to forget about you for some time, but for some reason my parents didn't let me. I always say well everything happens for something, but I would really love to know why this.

All I've done this hole day was think of you then, think of you, after that, think of you. Let's make it shorter all I ever did was think of you. When you text me I always smile and answer, but this time I was actually really happy because you did it. It's getting on my nerves, I really want to do something about it but I can't. For some reason I can't do anything at all.

I guess I'll go and watch some T.V. think about everything, and maybe if you do really care, you'll text, or even call. Just so you know I don't want to love you because I'm afraid that something bad will happen. I mean, in other words, I'm afraid I will get hurt, even though when I'm with you, I feel really happy and I feel like nothing bad can happen, there is always a side that tells you no. But remember after all I love you. You are the reason I wake up and smile. (:

Today we are going to fly

Take my hand, hold it tight 'cause baby today we are going to fly. We will fly to a place where there will be no one stopping us, to a place where there are no people that don't want us together, to our own world. To our own perfect world where no one can touch us, where no one can tell us not to be, where no one can tear us apart. To place where there would be me and you and it will never end.

I'm tired of always there being someone that doesn't want us together, tired of people trying to tear us apart. Life is not always the way you want it to be, but at least we can make an effort to make it similar. I'm tired of it, there is always something that stops us from being happy.

I remember the day you told me "There are people who want to kill us" then hugged me and said "but I'm with you". I loved that moment and I wish we could back in time, where she wasn't between us, where we were happy together. It made me remember Romeo & Juliet, where they fought for their love, and even if people tried to tear them apart they fought for them.

So baby what do you say? Just hold me tight, never let go, and we will scape. Maybe for sometime in our dreams but it will be us without problems. We will fly to a place where nothing will stop us, to a place that we've always dreamed of. So just do it, nothing can go wrong if there is only you and me. Like I said, we will fly to a place where it will be me & you forever, and nothing will stop us.

For all bad things, something good comes :)

I wonder how it would be if you knew that every smile from you, makes my day better. If you knew that the first time you told me I love you I couldn't sleep thinking that you said that. I'm starting to think that maybe you are a really important thing in my life. I know find my self happy again, laughing, and smiling, something I stopped doing a long time ago, for something really stupid.

A girl called Malu just asked me how I got all my inspiration, I laughed and just said music, and continue writing this. While I was writing I started thinking, is it really music? I think its you, since after all I've written till know it's really for you. So Malu if you read this now you got the real answer, its from the guy I Like.

I guess I have to say thank you to life, because after all after all bad things, something good comes. Life gave me fabulous friends, family, and gave me many opportunities that are just great. Even if some times I've crying till I have nothing left, there were always people that were there for me, looking after me, telling me that everything will be ok.

Now I moved from school, and I got to meet knew people. They are amazing. The girl that has treated me better is Lucero she is a great person. But this year I didn't only meet people from my school, I also got to meet people from other schools, like Malu who is a really nice girl. Like the guy I like, that just makes my days better, and many more people.

So I started talking about the guy I like and then went on with friends. Well I'll go once more to the guy I like. Like I said in the other post, thank you for every moment I had with you, you brighten my days, you are a really nice person, and talking to you is great, makes me smile and laugh, and be happy. Thank you I love you baby.

So I'll finish this post with the 8 most important people in my life.

1. My mom, 'cause she's always been there, she understood everything that I felt, and always knows what to say.

2. Fiorella Shiguekawa, you are a really great person thank you for always being there, and even if we had our ups and downs you were always, always there.

3. Renatto Lisman, without you I don't know what I would be doing right now. You were there with me in a time when I was really sad and felt alone. You never left me and always thought of me I love you, always remember that :)

4. Carlos Torres, woow I have no words to say how much I love you. You are a really nice person and have always been there for me. Even if you are kind of emo sometimes, and SOMETIMES forget about me, you always made me smile. I love you ugly :D

5. Fernanda Castro, you are the BEST person I've ever meet in my hole life. We never had fights and always with a smile you just made my day better. You are a wonderful person always remember that, and NO ONE can make you feel sad, just know that I'll always be there for you.

6. Bruno Rossi, you are the best oompa in the world, thank's for always been there for me, for helping me when I needed more than never a friend. Thank you for helping me in stead of your friend, I never thought you would do that I love you love :)

7. Sebastian Paul, even if you are a really annoying person, you've always been there, and you were the first person to be nice to me in school, thanks.

8. Ricardo Edson Palacios Guillen, you've always helped me out, I remember that the first time we talked to each other you were really shy and after we talked more and more and you kept hitting me, and laughing with me and about me. After all I really thank you because you were always there for me.

The same story one more time.

So once again I was wrong. You weren't the person I though you were. You didn't love me as much as I did, now I just stay alone with nothing left. I gave up everything for you, and you for me nothing... I can't understand why this always happens to me. "Star forgetting him" a friend told me, but if it was that easy I really would. Why do I keep on thinking about you? It hurts to know that you wouldn't even pick up the phone, or answer any message.

My friends tell me I shouldn't be sad or anything since there are many guys that actually would give a world for me, but I don't know why I'm stuck with someone that doesn't care about me. The only thing I can do is think about you, look at my phone and see if for any chance it will ring. I really hope it will, but I know deep inside it really won't.

I guess everything I though where just dreams, but like people say, dreams don't always come true. I wish I could go back in time, when we were back in the beach and we were happy together. But things happen and as the time passes by, people forget about it. I wonder were all the love when to. I really get frustrated to know hoy much I can love you, how happy I can get by just seeing you sing in, or send a message, and knowing you don't feel the same way.

It hurts to know all this happens. I wonder if I ever did something for all of this to happen to me. Today was a very sad day, I hated it. The guy I like didn't even talk to me, I realised that my best friend and I weren't so close any more. I felt like If I had lost everything I once loved. I wanted to run away, scape from this world, go to my world where everything was ok, where there was still a you & I.

I can't understand how everything got lost, one day we were all happy together, the next day, we barley talked. I wonder if it was something I did, something I said, or something I didn't say. I wish you were here right now, I really need you. I wish you were here right now. But I don't even know where you are, what you are doing. I'm dyeing to know something about you, but I know I should't send any message or call. I wanted you to do that, but I knew you weren't, and it killed me.

I guess I was wrong one more time, and one more time I will cry and be sad. One more time the story will happen. I look at the picture of us, and just cry. I cry because I don't know about you, because I don't know where all the love went. Because I know that you don't feel the same way.

Life your love life without regrets

So does love really exist or is it just a simple illusion? What ever it is, when you feel it, it feels nice, and even more if the person you like, likes you to. So tell me something, if love is a beautiful thing, why does it hurt you? It is weird since the person you think that loves you will never hurt you right? So then why do you end up hurt? Why do people say "love hurts"? Is it really that it's just made for people to suffer? Well here is what I think.

We are in a young age, and I don't think real love exist at these age. You think that your boyfriend is the love of your life, but believe me, the love of your life would never want to see you sad, and will NEVER hurt you. So why do people say to each other I love you when they are going out? Well maybe it's just to make it sweet, and it is true, but sometimes they don't even feel it. So why saying I love you, when you don't feel it? I guess just to sound sweet. I won't lie, I do like it when some tells me I love you. It makes it sound sweet, and it makes you feel loved.

You might wonder, but what if a friend tells you I LOVE YOU? Well, I have a friend I call him "Tonto" and he ALWAYS tells me I love you. He is a very important person to me. Love at this age does exist, but if its between friends. Friends are people that will ALWAYS be there for you no matter what, friends like him are one in a million. I can say I love him, because he's always been there for me, because when I'm crying he is the only one that can make me laugh or smile, because when I feel alone he is the one that is always there telling me that he will always be there for me. That's a love, I really LOVE. A friend love.

You might also think, well some people got married with their first boyfriend. It is true, some people do find true love with the first person. But those people are just one in a million. It's very sweet to get married with your first boyfriend, since you already know everything about him, and he knows everything about you. It's your first love a love you will never forget.

I won't lie, I've also said I LOVE YOU to my boyfriend, and yeah, sometimes I also didn't mean it, because like I said at the beginning I don't believe at love at this age, but I still love to say I love you, and that people tell me I love you. Maybe it's all something your heart wants you to hear, say, feel.

"Love" at this age is a very nice thing, since you like someone, you think they are the right one, and you feel like you are in a world with him, and then you experience what it is like to be left alone. You get new experiences, and you get to learn about life. It hurts when someone breaks up with you, but just remember everything happens for a reason, maybe it wasn't the right one, maybe you needed a break, but remember LIVE YOUR LIFE WITHOUT REGRETS, because you only live once. :)

A day with out you

I know some times you think I don't care about you, or I've left you aside. Even though you don't notice I'm always thinking of you. Wondering how you are, and where you are. I know we've gotten apart, but I want you to know that I will always be there, NO matter where you are, or what you are doing, just know that I would always be there.

I know I'm not the one that starts talking, but maybe it's because, you've never done it before. I would be honest with you, I know that in a few days you will be sad, but I want you to know that even if we are not that close to each other any more I'll be there, and even if I got hurt because we weren't so close just because of you know who, I'll be there, and if it's possible I will even cry with you, like we use to.

I MISS you and I want you to know that NO ONE and NOTHING will stop me from being your friend.

If you are reading this, I want you to know that I LOVED you, LOVE you, and WILL LOVE you.