You

So you asked me why I was happy and I told you because I met you. You didn't believe me, but I will show you a thousand of reasons so you can believe me, so you can know that because I met you I can smile and really feel it. So first of all let me tell you that you are a really important person to me, since the day I met you, you were always there for me, listening to my stupid problems, helping me, distracting me from class haha, and just being such a great friend, just being you. Maybe you didn't know, but you showed me that I can trust someone again, that I can build my own world full of hopes and happiness again. You showed me that love wasn't over.

You might be wondering how you did that, well let me tell you this. Before I met you I felt like my world was over, that wishes were useless because they wouldn't come true no matter how hard you wished for them. After that I met you, and you showed me a completely different view from the world. You showed me that wishes can come true if they are the right ones. You made me believe in wishes again, made me pray to the starts for some thing I really wanted, made me be the one I was before.

You, such a simple person, such a kind person, you changed my life completely. Just when I thought that life was the worst thing ever, you came and showed me that it's the best thing in the world. You made me believe in myself again, made me smile and really mean it. You just made me a the person I was before. Before when I smiled and felt it, when I believed in all those stupid things like wishes, and starts that make your wishes come true. You made me believe again.

Not only that, you also showed me that love wasn't over. That what I went through was just something that will teach me. You made me feel loved again. You showed me the real meaning of caring and loving someone. The real meaning of love. You told me that you would protect me from anything, now I feel save because I know that if I fall down I will have someone that will be there to help me get up again.

So just to finish this you showed me the bright side of life, you showed me that life can still go on and that if you fall down you can get up as many times as you want. Thank you a lot for everything you have done for me, for making me be the girl I was before, for always being there for me, and the most important thing, for showing me that I can believe in someone again. Thank you for showing me real love, I love you.

You make me smile

I was looking at google, kind of sad, I won't lie, but then I saw a picture that sad "You make me smile". In that moment I remembered when you once told me "Some times, when I talk to you, I smile and don't even notice". Well guess what? It always happens to me. I some times find my self smiling while I'm talking to you, and that's why I just Love the way you steal a smile from my face. I know that it might sound weird, but it is true.

For some reason we aren't talking right now. Maybe it's you, maybe it's me, but right now I don't care about it, right now I only know that I would love to talk to you, to get back the smile that I once got because of you. To get back the smile that you drew on my face, with the same pencil that we used to write our story.

The funny thing is that there is a small possibility that you will read this, but who knows, maybe you won't even know it's for you. I still write, just because I'm trying to find something nice. Something that will actually say exactly the way I feel with out telling you too much. Any ways, even though right now we aren't talking, I love you.

Smile(:

So why not trying to find some thing nice about life? Well there are many things. How to start this? I don't know. Is it good? I don't think so. Am I having fun while I'm writing this? I guess so. Am I happy right now? We could say so. Are you happy with your life right now? Not really. So if there are many sad answers, how will I find a good thing about life? Well here is the answer, which is actually longer than the other ones because it's happy.

So a good thing about life, I have friends. They might be crazy but I have fun with them, they make me smile when I'm about to cry, and I laugh with them. They are always there for me, and no matter what they will still a smile from me. So friends are really important in life, they support you and never leave you behind, they will smile with you, and cry with you, they will stick up for you and won't ever let you do stupid things... well at least alone.

After that there is always family. They will always know what to tell you, and will always be the right thing. They will always, always be there, they will never fail you. Also they love you like no one else loves you, they are the only people who really know you the way you really are, and still accepts you. They are the people who watched you grow, make a mistake and help you fix it, they are the people who never abandoned you.

So there you go, reasons of why smiling even though you feel like shit. Even when you think that your world is getting destroyed by an unknown reason, remember there are always things of why smiling. So don't ever forget it, smile even if the world is breaking into small little pieces.

July 23

Knowing that you were once there for me is good, but thinking that you aren't any more hurts. It was once a you & me, but not any more, why? Maybe because I got scared, and I was hopping to get a little protection or security, but I didn't. I only wanted to know that you cared about me the same way I did, but I didn't even get that. You were really nice, always so sweet, but the wind takes the words, but if they were true, they should have stayed, not go.

After what happened a while ago changed me, and you knew it. You knew that it was the worst thing that I ever felt, and you didn't care. The thing that happened scared me, and I didn't ever want to fall in love ever again. And if before I liked some one, it was just like a game, and you knew it. You knew that I hated the feeling of being alone, that I was scared that what happened once will happen again.

You told me you did care, and that it wasn't ever going to be like that again. But guess what? You were wrong, because after all at the end you just left me there. So tell me now, how am I suppose to trust any once again? If the person who I started trusting again just left me there like nothing. Let me tell you some thing, I'm tired of being used as a toy, I thought you were different, I thought you did care... But I was wrong, you never did, and you'll never do.

For you.

I'll tell you the truth, I don't know how to start this, I just know I have to and I want to. Maybe if you read it you will never know it's for you but I hope you do. I once promised you I was going to write about you so now I'm doing it, it's just that I'm not sure if it's good or not. I try to write with out showing what I really feel, but if there is something that I should tell you is that I don't know what I would do with out you, and that you are a really important person for me. It's interesting how you made me love you so much in such a small time, but I won't lie, I like it.

Thank you for always being there for me, you are a very special person. I love it when you still a smile from my face, and when you make me laugh, with you dumb thoughts. Maybe it's true that I don't really want to accept the truth, that I do really love you. It's just really amazing how fast all of this happened. Now I know that if I lose you I would go crazy, I guess I got used to your love and that I don't want to lose it.

I shall say that I love the way you say my name or you call me, and even if you annoy me, I like it. In case you don't know, you are pretty much always in my mind, I can't get you out of my head. I love it when you call, or when you send a message, and I hate when you don't. I wish that I could be with you, spend a little bit more time together, but it's not possible, and I know that things happen for a reason. You are so far away from me but at the same time so close, you can't even imagine how much I love it. To finish this, I love you more than you can imagine, and believe me when I say I love you because it's true.

Today.

I cough myself smiling, and I was wondering why. After that I realised it was because I was thinking of you. I wonder why you are always on my mind. It's like you are stuck in my head and the only thing I can do is think of you. It's amazing how the only thing I think about it's you and me being together again.

I was pretty bored today, I didn't really do anything. Actually I didn't do anything at all. I stayed home since I had to do some homework. I still haven't finished them, and I can't understand why. I have all the information I need, but for some reason I just can't do the work. The only thing I do is listen over and over again the same song that reminds me of you, and wait for you to call me or text me. Am I just going mad? I really don't want to fall in love. I have bad experience with it. Last time I really liked someone I turned up getting really hurt, and to be honest, I don't really want that again.

So if I know I don't want to love you, why can't I just stop thinking of you? It's just amazing how I can't do anything than think of you. It gets really frustrating. I wanted to go out, think about other things, just try to forget about you for some time, but for some reason my parents didn't let me. I always say well everything happens for something, but I would really love to know why this.

All I've done this hole day was think of you then, think of you, after that, think of you. Let's make it shorter all I ever did was think of you. When you text me I always smile and answer, but this time I was actually really happy because you did it. It's getting on my nerves, I really want to do something about it but I can't. For some reason I can't do anything at all.

I guess I'll go and watch some T.V. think about everything, and maybe if you do really care, you'll text, or even call. Just so you know I don't want to love you because I'm afraid that something bad will happen. I mean, in other words, I'm afraid I will get hurt, even though when I'm with you, I feel really happy and I feel like nothing bad can happen, there is always a side that tells you no. But remember after all I love you. You are the reason I wake up and smile. (:

Today we are going to fly

Take my hand, hold it tight 'cause baby today we are going to fly. We will fly to a place where there will be no one stopping us, to a place where there are no people that don't want us together, to our own world. To our own perfect world where no one can touch us, where no one can tell us not to be, where no one can tear us apart. To place where there would be me and you and it will never end.

I'm tired of always there being someone that doesn't want us together, tired of people trying to tear us apart. Life is not always the way you want it to be, but at least we can make an effort to make it similar. I'm tired of it, there is always something that stops us from being happy.

I remember the day you told me "There are people who want to kill us" then hugged me and said "but I'm with you". I loved that moment and I wish we could back in time, where she wasn't between us, where we were happy together. It made me remember Romeo & Juliet, where they fought for their love, and even if people tried to tear them apart they fought for them.

So baby what do you say? Just hold me tight, never let go, and we will scape. Maybe for sometime in our dreams but it will be us without problems. We will fly to a place where nothing will stop us, to a place that we've always dreamed of. So just do it, nothing can go wrong if there is only you and me. Like I said, we will fly to a place where it will be me & you forever, and nothing will stop us.